There's something twangy playing over the radio. It seems fitting-twang and stupid humid hot weather seem to go hand in hand. I've escaped to the Starbucks in hopes of avoiding the convection oven that is my apartment.
In a quest to get back to what makes me happy I've been re-reading everything I've ever written. Blogs,notebooks,scraps,essays,short stories,journals..whatever. I've read it. This long and sometimes tedious quest has brought me to the startling realization: I'm living the summer I wanted last year.
Everything I wanted last year, everything that seemed so far out of reach-the job, the housing, the friendships,the parties,the fashion, the music, my attitude...all of it. I have.
It was a "stop in your tracks" kind of moment.
This summer hasn't been magical. It's been electric.
Beaches,pools, sunshine that won't quit,A job I can stand,Living alone.Boys. Queen St,College st, dance till you drop dance parties,More Boys.Old friends being just as lovely and new friends forming forever spots in my heart. Electro music, dancing in Chinese restaurants and in churches.Parks and beers and markets and music and friends who sweat passion and creativity. It's been pretty nuts.
I thought a moment of appreciation was needed. For all the itching for the What's Next I guess I forget to stop and look around.
Life is what you make of it.
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