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To be fair I should be outside, enjoying the patio and the sunshine but my mind is on high speed and probably moving faster than my fingers can move.If this makes little to no sense then well..oh well, I just need to get this out while I remember what I'm remembering. Excuse the typos please, I'm having fat fingers today.


I've been reading a lot, I mean A LOT of Sylvia Brown the past couple of days.You know the physic from Montel Williams? I'm so excited about what I've been reading.
I guess I should start at the beginning.Having no social life has lead me to often walk the 5 minutes down the street to the local Cole's bookstore, buy a coffee and spend the day reading high priced glossy novels. It's like the library but with a Starbucks. When I received a gift card in the denomination of $25 for my birthday I had no idea what I'd want to buy, considering I just read the books rather than purchase them.
After a long walk around,searching for the perfectly priced book I discovered the sales section. Cast away with many of her other published works was Sylvia Brown's 'Mystical Traveler' and 'Levels of creation'. Looking around to make sure no one I knew could see me (which isn't hard considering I live in the middle of 20-something year old nowhere) I scooped up my guilty pleasures- the Sylvia slim pages and slinked off to the nearest arm chair.
I couldn't put them down. Besides dealing with the mystical, which I adore, Sylvia Brown has a way of writing exactly as she speaks (minus the gravely voice, which is welcome)and her writing is actually really entertaining, but simple enough that someone who's brain has been shut off as long as mine can understand what the hell's going on. I haven't related to spiritual "guide" in a while, so was a moment of sheer bliss. The last time I had a moment of spiritual connectedness was over a year ago and before that I can't remember so this felt like being woken up all over again. I wish I could express it more poetically or with a better flourish of words to really summerize how I felt, but at the moment I just can't.
It's so hard to express how I feel right now, I suppose excited would sum it up and once I've collected my thoughts I hope that I can explain this more succinctly but for now I'm going to give you a few passages and let you come to your own conclusions.

"Propaganda can be a very powerful tool. Entire governments in Russia and Nazi Germany once used it very effectively, and it's still being utilized in China and North Korea. In the United States, we see how advertising agencies and the media employ it every day. As for so- called journalists ,they seem to always follow the axiom of "bad news makes headlines" so a tragic story is like money in the bank.
Propaganda works so well because it basically programs the human mind, so you always need to be aware of what types of messages you're receiving-especially when it comes to to religion and society. When you're subjected to continual negative programming, it has a such an effect on your soul that it can hamper its spiritual growth.
If you go to a church, synagogue, temple, or mosque, really listen and find out whether your religious leader tends to stress the negative or positive. If it's the latter, you can take the joy in your faith and truly worship God in the way you want. But if it's the former, watch out. Be aware that you're being programmed with negativity such as bigotry (sermons should never put down other beliefs or certain practices) ; the fear of God (remember that our Creators are only loving and merciful); guilt (be wary if everyone is called a "sinner" or "unworthy" if you're told that your soul will not be saved unless you do such and such, or if you're asked for money over and over again); and hypocrisy (no one dogma or creed is the only way to 'salvation')
Any religion that isn't magnanimous or tolerant of other belief systems, or even other sects of the same faith, can be very negative and certainly give you a false sense of what spirituality really is...
...The golden rule is doing to others as you would have them do to you-Love God, Love your Neighbour, Love youself.True Spirituality is basic and complete, and anyone can attain it, despite religious traditions and society's tainted preponderance for wealth and power."



"Religion is particularly full of hypocrisy...The Catholic Church admits its many atrocities (yet apologizes with little fanfare) but then it turns around and says the Pope is infallible. The Catholic and Protestant faiths preach about homosexuality and "sinful" sexual practices-spouting bigotry and instigating hate crimes- only to be party to all sorts of scandals involving pastors, preachers, and priests that are sexual in nature.I get so angry when I see how these supposed men of of God perpetuate negativity all the time. All they're doing is taking humankind's innate fear of the unknown and utilizing it to their advantage. It's sad and it's wrong and it takes us back to the dark ages when people were burned at the stake.