help a brother out.

I need new music.

Asap. My library is archaic, naw whadda I mean?

I'm taking up Jackson suggestion and looking into refused, there's some Steve Aoki I'm checking out too...,mainly I'm looking for things to make me move, make me feel, make me rock the fuck out.

Pass it on yo, I'm impressionable.

.A hilarious conversation.

Ladies, I know there are others out there like this, like my friend, like me, we just read into things way more than necessary. We over complicate things and refuse to use logic to figure out situations like this, not because we're stupid but because we want to believe these bullshit stories...
A conversation with a friend, after the guy she's seeing told her he "doesn't want a relationship"
I think hes just really confused..

and is genuinely a nice guy under it all...so he was warning me I guess?
He said at this point in his life he doesnt really see himself getting married, and maybe he will in the future, but right now he doesnt see it. so he doesnt see the point in a relationship and he told me that before.But then I was confused as to why he was trying to hang so much and texting so much ...etc etc
And then he said he is, or has been, a relationship person so hes not really a player
more of a one guy girl...but he's confused now because he doesnt know that there is a point to a relationship if he doesnt see the marriage thing happening...so i think really he DOES like me,more so than I do him...but told me so i wouldnt start liking him blah blah

Lauren: you need to read this book,its called he's just not that into you.
and i need to re-read it.
and then we need to go for martinis and stop making excuses for dudes who can't even think of clever excuses as to why they're just not into us.

.dumb.

Do you know what irritates me a lot?

People who talk to their dogs softly when trying to discipline them and then when their dog doesn't respond blaiming it on the dogs intelligence, as if dogs and humans are suppose to be intelligent in the same way.

"No fluffy, don't you jump on that lady, what did I say about jumping on the nice people?" That's what a lady said in the sweetest tone said to her dog as it was trying to maul my leg.
"I'm sorry, she's not very smart" the lady then went on to say.

Do you they think their dog can understand them? Why do they think an animal is stupid when it won't respond to words alone? Here's a tip,idiot human[ because you have obviously never taken a dog obedience course, or read a book on the nature of dogs, and I'm sure you think your dog is a human too]- Dogs don't understand English, nor do they understand french Spanish Latin or Greek, they understand fluctuations in your tone, they can hear the command not through understanding of the language itself but rather through familiarity of the person's tones when they say "sit" for example.
This is the same idea as one person who doesn't speak a particular language, let's use English for example- this person who doesn't speak English can still have an understanding of expressed anger or despair or happiness from another person speaking solely English in part of the expressions themselves having unique tonal patterns.
Coming back to how your dog works. If you tell your dog nicely "no no, don't jump on people" in the same way you say "good doggie, thanks for not peeing on the rug" I guarantee your dog will keep jumping and expect a fucking cookie for it. There's no assertion of the alpha in this situation. Tell your dog to "sit", "stay", "don't fucking jump on people" with assertion, looking the dog in the eye until it looks away, it won't understand what exactly you're saying but you will have asserted dominance, which they do understand and this assertion will make them stop whatever they're doing., pretty quickly because in the pack with the alpha, you know, the dominant dog will basically fuck you up if you don't listen. Back in the day when I owned an aggressive pitbull and an over-hyper, disobedient husky it was critical to learn how dogs work and function and I'm telling you, not once did I ever ask my husky nicely not to jump on people. Why? Because if my dog were a human she would have laughed at me, told me to fuck off and jumped on that person because she's in charge and I'm just a cookie dispenser.

Over and out.

.Better off.

I am bored.
I just ate a plate of spaghetti and I'm still hungry.

I should be sleeping, I work tomorrow at 8 which means I have to be up at 5:30, to leave by 6:30 to catch the lame bus to work.
Yes, it takes an hour and a half to transit it across town.

It took me the same amount of time to go to Toronto every day, only difference $20.00 round trip vs $6.00.
FML.

Burlington is okay, because after two months I've finally made some friends, but tonight I'm feeling pretty jipped. I'm trying to stick the the motto that every place is only "as good as you make it." and I know that after moving around as much as I have (holler 8 times in the last 3 years) I really need to grow some roots, somewhere...I'm just wondering, here? Why here of all places? Because my family's here? Because I have a total of 2 friends here? Ugh. I need a life make-over. I feel like I always need a life make-over and once I stop feeling like that life makes itself over. How do I stop feeling so damn restless all the time?

.Sorry is a 4 letter word that ends with 'Y'.

Okay Brain, do your stuff.

Borderline 'doing' something that seems stupid, makes me feel stupid and looks stupid on paper is probably:
a-Stupid
b-Should be avoided due to it's similarities to past mistakes.
c-Is cruel and should never be spoken of again.
or
d-All of the above.

I will not let my emotions or my hormones get the better of me.

.Listen all of ya'll.

The real world has interrupted my blog life.

Which is perfectly fine by me, blog I love ya but the real world is waaay cooler.

Quick updates:
Janna visited and while here was convinced that because she dislikes Peterborough so much she should do something about it.
She decided to move back to Burly. What?! Awesome! Her and her BF will be back in about a month. She also introduced me to some new rad people and we spent three days in parks, having bonfires, drinking beer and eating food. I love lonely life but having my social one come back full force is wicked!

My job is actually getting better. My managers are really awesome to me, providing me lots of feedback so although it's not a job I want forever in an industry I don't like at least I feel like everyday I'm learning something and as of lately I really enjoy learning as much as I can about whatever topic. I feel assured that as long as I'm making an effort to learn and pushing myself I'll gain something valuable from this experience.

My home life is also steady-ish. There's a lot going on within the fam dynamic, things that I wasn't really aware of and I can appreciate that my decision to move in was a really positive and needed thing. At first I was moving in to get help but now it turns out that I'm helping heal some overly band-aided soul wounds. I love my family so much and it kills me that my eyes were so shut to all of the things going on, they've really taken a front seat for me, as they should. People have asked me
"EW, Why do you live in Burlington??"
and honestly the answer to why I moved here is moot, the reason I'm staying here is because of them, because I love them and I refuse to spend any more of my life without my loved ones, my family as part of it.

Other than that there are 4 weeks until Matty gets here (provided Ash quits falling from the sky...it's the end of times yo, seriously) and at the end of the Summer I'm going to visit my Godmother Debbie in North Carolina for a week and a bit.

So back to life, back to reality.

:D

.Friends are jewels.

I always skip over these pictures, but if I had to frame any it would be these.