.Show her your money maker.

I love summer so far.
Everything has been working out so smoothly.

On Wednesday I was offered a camping trip this weekend with Shaun, all expenses paid. We're going to White Sand's which is about 15 minutes from Sauble Beach.
Holler.
Beaches,Grotto's,Beers,Volleyball and campfires?
There's something to do for the four days I have off.

Yesterday I worked the last shift I had in my eight day straight working week. Just when I thought I was going to lose my mind:

"Umm, Mike, can I go home early?"

"Why?"

"Because if I have to be here for one more hour I think I will go insane"

"Fair enough"

One hour early!
I felt like it was the last day of school before summer, I ran out the doors! Not really, but in my mind I was running.

I met up with Amber right after and we got silly off of wine, listening to Alexisonfire and eventually made it up to the Boys' house. Brian ended up telling us that he was heading to Ancaster today.

"You're going to Ancaster?!"

"Yup, tomorrow"

"That's Grimsby's neighbour, can I come with you?!"

"Yup!"

Then I found out that Emily is home this weekend too, and Marika is having her birthday party tonight. Greenhow & a party? Frigg, I'm getting lucky as hell.

The ride down was uber fun & went by waaay too fast. Brian and I just rocked out to Ra ra riot & the Strokes and drank our coffee in bliss.

"Uhh. I want a smoke"
"Oh no! Me too!"
"I've been thinking that since..."
"You got your coffee?"
"Yah!"


When I got home I went to plug in my outdated ipod and realised that I have music on itunes from grade 12. Talk about a flashback to happy happy times. I quickly synced that shit up.
Now I'm eating a cookie and waiting for Karli to call me so we can meet up with Kurt & Colin, and then I'm guessing we're going to drink beers or something.

It's all so simple, but pretty freaking grand.

Camping tomorrow!

.Oh Sunday.

Last night was one of those magical nights.

Amber & I were bored so went went to the Only. There was a show going on up stairs so the place was packed, it was warm and the air was electric.

We were there for maybe five minutes when my buddy Neil (who lives in Toronto) walk up to the fence. Firstly I'm just surprised to see him, secondly he says "Hey wanna go to a house party?"
Life is so random sometimes.
So we have a beer, and Emma joins us, and its one of those night where everyone is just on fire, so hilarious that I think I almost wet myself.

Crazy house party.
And somehow I was still able to function today.

But now...as much as I want to go out a pot of tea, a cigarette and my bed seem SO inviting.

Yup, I'm really going to bed before 10.

.Don't quit me.

I've been an ass.
Today was a much needed but hard to digest reality check.

Logic VS Emotion.

I just wish this would have happened months ago, or that I was willing to listen.






Ne me quitte pas
Il faut oublier
Tout peut s'oublier
Qui s'enfuit déjà
Oublier le temps
Des malentendus
Et le temps perdu
A savoir comment
Oublier ces heures
Qui tuaient parfois
A coups de pourquoi
Le coeur du bonheur

Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Moi je t'offrirai
Des perles de pluie
Venues de pays
Oÿ il ne pleut pas
Je creuserai la terre
Jusqu'après ma mort
Pour couvrir ton corps
D'or et de lumière
Je ferai un domaine
Oÿ l'amour sera roi
Oÿ l'amour sera loi
Oÿ tu seras reine

Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Je t'inventerai
Des mots insensés
Que tu comprendras
Je te parlerai
De ces amants-là
Qui ont vu deux fois
Leurs coeurs s'embraser
Je te raconterai
L'histoire de ce roi
Mort de n'avoir pas
Pu te rencontrer

Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

On a vu souvent
Rejaillir le feu
De l'ancien volcan
Qu'on croyait trop vieux
Il est paraät-il
Des terres brulées
Donnant plus de blé
Qu'un meilleur avril
Et quand vient le soir
Pour qu'un ciel flamboie
Le rouge et le noir
Ne s'épousent-ils pas

Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Ne me quitte pas
Je ne vais plus pleurer
Je ne vais plus parler
Je me cacherai là
A te regarder
Danser et sourire
Et à t'écouter
Chanter et puis rire
Laisse-moi devenir
L'ombre de ton ombre
L'ombre de ta main
L'ombre de ton chien

Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

.You put you left foot in, you put your left foot out.

I made the most delicious food today:





A tuna melt sandwich and spicy tofu & veggies.

As soon as I was done cooking though I thought "I'm not even hungry"
So here I am, blogging about it rather than eating it.

In other news :
Life is funny.
Home was amazing, as per usual, I hung out with Shaun for the most part & ate way too much food. I was told that "[I've] lost a lot of weight! You're so skinny! How'd you do it?!"
I went to answer that I've been eating well, lots of water etc etc and my sister pipes in with "She got dumped"

Haha.
For the record, if I've lost weight it's not because of that! It really is from yummy healthy food & water.
Friggen sister.

Plans in the works:
Writing down everything , everyday & seeing where that goes
Camping trip over the long weekend, who wants in? We're going to Sauble.
&
FLORIDA! in August. Oh the hotter the better! <3


Today is such a chill peaceful day. I'm really learning to love my own company.

.I watched the sunrise.

I'm covered in bruises and my feet are dirty and I smell like campfire.

I feel wonderful despite the raging hangover I have.


I said everything I've wanted to say for about four years. I didn't get closure but I did get massive clarification, an admittance of guilt , an apology and one of the best all night conversations I've had in ages.

When you're hanging out with a Wizard there's bound to be magic.

.Bye.

I can't believe I
Fell for that line.
I should have seen it coming this time.

But you tugged at my heart
and I covered my eyes
and loved you without sight.

That's when you ran.
That's when you walked away Baby
And all of that time, I was just blind
But it's alright.
and that's okay.
I'll be just fine.

The band is all here
and the bourbon is free
we drink & we dance without misery.
and my friends are so patient
while im stroking your ego
tomorrow they'll tell me so.

Oh let him go.
Let him run away Baby
How couldn't you see, that you're not meant to be
and it's alright
yeah it ok
just start living your life.

That's when I ran
that's when I walked away Baby
And all of this time, I was so blind.
But that's alright.
and that's okay.
I'll be just fine.

.You're at a barbeque and I'm losing my mind.

I think I need to go back into hiding.


So far reality and feeling things again and being social,
is just not working for me.


I wish I had the ability to just chill when it comes to him,
but something always rears its ugly head.


Eww.
What a sad, disgusting analogy.

Rears its ugly head. Uck.
FML.

.All things trendy.

Things I'm digging right now.



Yellow Nail Polish.



Grey Nail polish.




This little guy.



This reminds me of Beauty & the Beast for some reason.



Sigh..Drool.


And this...I want SO badly. It looks like an old ring I had that I wore for almost 4 years straight before it just vanished one day from my bathroom.



Because it's just too cute to resist.

.A dream is a wish your heart makes.

I am SO sick of my wardrobe.
Everything I have I hate. I remember loving every clothing item I have last summer, however this June 1st everything clothing wise I own is sucktacular.

Amber Brant and I went shopping today and I helped her find some amazing pieces. Everything looked so friggen good on her, then I tried on some things and they were all just horrible, and it wasn't those, "I look like crap" days either, I just felt like while everything fit perfectly something about the colours or the style in general was so...off..Its as if I've outgrown my old style but now I have no idea what to pick out for myself.

Money is also hindered greatly so unless someone wants to donate one sweet wardrobe to the Lauren Schell clothing fund then I'll just have to drool over these beautys.









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I've also been considering hair extensions. I really think my new wardrobe needs long flowing brown/black locks.

.Don't read this...I'm on repeat, I know.

I miss Elliott.













This sucks.

.It's never enough or it's always too much.

It's never enough.
Or it's always too much.
Oh hell , it's ever 'tuff.
This loving stuff.

He couldn't come home,
or pick up a phone
or be bothered to sleep in the same bed as me some nights.
He was rude and said no mushy things,
and got mad when I pouted when we couldn't be alone.
He was never enough.
He was never enough.

Then there's another one ,
who's just plain dumb,
he calls me four times a day and doesn't understand
"I have to go".
He says one too many mushy things,
and gets pouty and sullen when I want to be alone.
He was just too much.
He was just too much.