I'd be lying if I said I'm not ready for fall.
I'm ready to wear a sweatshirt and high boots and wooly socks.
I'm ready to move back to Toronto and tell Burlington to go fuck itself.
Did you know Burlington ships its homeless off to Hamilton?
A CLEAN CITY MEANS A HAPPY CITY
I'm also for something to change....I guess I'm in a perpetual state of 'waiting for something to change.'
Six months ago I moved back "home' to Burlington. It was an opportunity to live in the same house as my little brother, save some money and have a chance to figure out what I really wanted to do with my life.
I quit HMV, got hired at a new job and was given a promotion to Assistant Manager within the first two months. I paid off some debt and grew a deep hatred for Burlington.
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy. I just really REALLY hate Burlington. (I will post more on this, I wrote a whole slam about this..this hatred)
I have four more OSAP payments before I'm in the clear for another loan and one more Visa payment before that debt it clear as well.
I just don't feel like I've accomplished anything yet.
Some would call this success, right? I have a career-esk job that makes me some good, nay GREAT coin, I'm around my family and their love and sometimes(haha) support, I'm on my way to having the ability to pay back and pay off school next year,I have a great boyfriend and wonderful friends....Okay, I'm pretty fucking lucky...
...I just feel like I've had blinders on. Pay of debt, Pay of Debt, Pay off Debt, Go to school, go to school and its made summer so far not so enjoyable. I know that once the money has been paid to the appropriate institutions that this feeling of sacrifice will turn into pride. Pride that I've worked my ass off for something I want.
I just miss having a local pub to meet up with friends at. I miss it only taking half an hour to get to work. I miss having friends in the same city and only having to take a $20.00 cab ride on the most desperate of mornings rather than 3-4 times a week. All of these things and more I miss but it will be worth it in the end.
It just goes to show that money and a great job doesn't mean shit if you can't buy your friends a beer after work.
Through this process I can't be thankful enough for my wonderful, understanding friends...thank you for keeping our bridges intact, because lord knows you have.
Amber,Leah,KC,Brian.Jenny,Janna,Farah and Ian..I heart you so incredibly much.
I'm ready for change but I'm also ready to start embracing this opportunity to get my shit together...Despite how much I HATE Burlington.
